On my Way to Christ
One preparatory episode on my way to Christ was when my mother died on August 8, 1980. Even though she had died, I kept conversing with her, only that I could not touch her physically. I am not saying that my mother was a devil, but I say that I used evil means to invoke her to my abode, and she used to appear.
I had a shrine. Whenever I entered it I would instruct my wives not to tell anyone that I was in it. I feared that people would tamper with my oval cord and I would die. This reckless and meaningless way of life continued in me. The time I was so powerful was about to end!
By 1982 I had made an attempt to receive Christ. But because of persecution and indecision I went back again into my former way of life and my wickedness increased a thousand times. This happened because at that point I had not surrendered completely to Christ.